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De deux choses Lune, l'autre c'est le Soleil. [ Jacques Prévert ]
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De deux choses Lune, l'autre c'est le Soleil. [ Jacques Prévert ]
Lundi 13 décembre 2010 à 19:23
Je le veux, au petit-dèj, à midi, à croquer au goûter, au dîner. Le matin dans mon bain, dans mon lit pour la nuit. A ma fenêtre, à ma porte, à mes pieds, dans mes bras.
" You are my sweetest downfall." Samedi 4 décembre 2010 à 22:57
I just don't know why, some times are harder than others. I think I'm not made for being alone. Being alone for so long. I keep watching sad movies, eating chocolate and crying my heart out. I eat to stop thinking that I'm eating to fill a big hole inside. I don't need food, I need attention, I need love. I need to be held in someone's arms, truely, not just for fun, not just for one night. I'd just like to be one of those girls, but it's not happenning, and maybe I do everything so I doesn't. Maybe it's on purpose. I just don't know, and sometimes I get on well with that, but, sometimes I feel just so alone, so far away from home. Sometimes I'm just not as grown up as I would like to. I'm playing the game of the adult, of the teacher, of the independant girl. But I'm just a child. I just so small and I would like to be in someone's arms, just to know that it's gonna happen again. And I know it's stupid. But still. I might not be as strong as I look like, and I might need a hand sometimes. But still. I just don't know how to fix it, how to manage it. I haven't been in that situation for so long, and I just don't remember how I was doing before. I know one day I will sort it out, but, for now, I have the impression of being in the dark, and I have no idea of what's gonna happen after. I don't know where I'll be in six months, I don't know if I will be able to achieve my dream, and I will able to get over him. I'm trying I swear I do, but it takes so much time, and I'm a impatient child, and when I don't have what I want quickly, I have the impression I will never have it. I know I have to wait, to be patient, to learn it. I'd like to. I just don't know how. 
